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May. 24th, 2016 @ 07:39 pm Work
Doing tech support for Apple products for 2 1/2 years has been challenging. I want to do something different. It's a challenge to want to come to work and a challenge to stay at work. I don't feel I am progressing. But I have continued to try to stay. I applied to be a trainer and to be quality and did not get either position. I am just over the job. I wish I could find somewhere with people to talk to but just do data entry. Give me data and let me put it into the computer.
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May. 20th, 2016 @ 03:19 am 2016
I'm still taking the same phone calls. Still having to roller coaster life. Prime example. 3 weeks ago there were one or two down days. Then the following week was the same. The last week I was depressed all week. Sunday May 14th 2016, me and Justin Sensat decided we would start dating.
He tries to send those comments that people dating would send. Yet I'm not sure how to react. Never was good at it. I will try to come around.

I quit smoking for a month. With the depression that has changed. We can try again soon.

I have my own place but I'm scared of losing it. I am scared to lose my job and not be able to find a new one or afford living with a new job. I'm just all out scared.

Well it's been a year.
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Apr. 25th, 2015 @ 12:44 am Current Situation
It has been a decent year and a half. I am not really feeling San Antonio, Texas. But its still been alright. I think I am just meant to move up to Tennessee. I really just want to go. I have for a while. I would kind of need $900 to move up there. I would predict $200 to get there. Then there is the matter of renting a place. I am unsure of how to make it all work.
Now the other news. The car radiator recently started leaking. The repairs minimally could be done at $350 if I did the labor myself. Not sure I could do that. With labor might could get it done for $700. Better than the $1400 by Firestone. I guess I should plan the repairs before leaving. Or Leave the car here.

Other than all that. I have been working doing Tech Support for Apple for a Year and a half now. It is getting hard to want to go to work. I am just tired of it. Maybe it is because I feel under appreciated at this company and lack the benefits. I found a company in Tennessee that is the same as what I am doing here ad offers better benefits and a little bit of better pay.

I wish I had got the Flight Attendant position. That would have been great to do. I think it is my current dream job. But I will have to wait a Year to apply with United again. Then with Delta I think I can apply again in a few months. I think I may have to take the time and practice the interviews.
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Dec. 10th, 2014 @ 02:34 pm work
Work is annoying. I am so over taking calls and dealing with stupid questions. I would have really enjoyed and been great as a flight attendant.

We will see how the next applications go. If anything I'll have a passport.

I just want to get out of here. It's time to get out completely on my own. I want to do a job I can enjoy. I am just tired of brig here.

After a month I am tired of the roommates and their ungrateful inconsiderate crap. I give them their space and expect to have my own yet they want to just control it all.

I just need to get to my own space.
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Dec. 10th, 2014 @ 01:24 am dreams again
So it's been about a week but I had a dream about Soencer.

He had bought a car in Phoenix Arizona and he wanted me to ride with him. He has a Toyota four runner. He drove down to moms (not the real house) to pick me up. We stayed at moms for the night then the next day we left early. 9 am. On the trip we stopped at some store and I remember looking at stuff. Then we left again. That night we stopped at a hotel and slept in the same bed. I slept in my underwear. Well I fell right to sleep. I woke up the next morning on his arm and him talking, he was telling me how we would only ever be friends.

Then then the next day I had a dream about Trey. We got back together when he came hear. (Physically but not dating per say).

Then I had a dream about Spencer again but I don't remember much about it.
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Dec. 10th, 2014 @ 01:02 am Been A While...
So I am currently in Texas and it's been good over all but right now not as much.

Mood rollar coaster and not digging the roommates right now. I almost just want to loose it.

I think it's time to go the next step. Move out on my own and handle my own.

I wish Delta would have come through. I really wanted to become a flight attendant and with them I could end up back in Atlanta.

Everything is crazy these days. It's almost a country song.

Leaving it there for now.
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Aug. 18th, 2013 @ 07:40 am Dream 08/18/2013

Last night i dreamt that I was at Harveys on Cherry Creek in Valdosta. I was there with my sister, 3 nephews and niece. We were at check out. My niece put the change on the counter for the cashier. When it was counted we were short a dollar and a cent. But some how the manager messed up the change. And I told him that we were going to need to remove an item. He called the manager to get an item removed. The manager came and I explained we were a dollar and a cent short. And needed an item removed. He started to argue about it. No one in line was willing to give a dollar and a cent so I told the manager id get a dollar and a sent. He grabbed my arm and then i pushed his head for him to let go. And i went and reached under the shelves. somehow i managed to climb under them. Got change people had dropped while shopping. got the dollar and a cent and took to cashier. sister and kids had left but my mom came in. I went to talk to the store manager and explained what happened. said i would just go to harveys in lakeland if needed.
then thee other manager was in a wheelchair and was some what herassing me. Somehow he managed to rub my right testical i said out loud not to touch my testical. people apparently found that funny. and so i am around the store waiting to hear about what was going to happen. one of the other employees called me to talk with him. he said i was going to get a warninng for smoking a cigarette in the store. i was like when. and then i remembered in line at the cashier. because my sister was smoking one too. then he nothing was going to happen with that manager because if coorporate fired him then they would look at the rest of the store. and they would fire more people.


What is upt with the stupid crazy dreams like this one?

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May. 1st, 2013 @ 12:53 am (no subject)
I wonder how your vacation is going. I'm sure to find out.

What I think about:
Where do you want us to go? Are we talking as if its just us or are we allowed to be with other people? Like sleeping with other people? Just wondering. I am not going to because I don't want to mess anything up. I do like you.

I may have my little experience but none of it has been like this. Most have been one time and then not again. So having this is something I am not experienced with. If I am doing something wrong then correct me.

Is it ok that I think about you a lot? I guess its either ok or a problem. Its something I can't quite help. Sometimes I think I am not sure I want to be with you but that's an ok thought. Most of the time I think I do want to be with you.

I want to spend more time with you doing other things. Like walking or going to places. Like the plan to go to Wild Adventures.

I do have some feelings for you. I will say that.
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Apr. 22nd, 2013 @ 12:54 am A Statement
I really think I enjoy being around you. I want to get to know you more. I want to spend time with you. Maybe I am rushing a little bit. I don't want to rush because I don't want you to feel rushed either. I have to say when I like someone it doesn't usually go as I would have liked. I am not comparing you to those instances because you have already showed me the attention I haven't got from them. You also seem more interested as far as I can tell.
Thank you.
Maybe one day I willl share this with you. Not a maybe. If we do become a committed couple I will share this with you. Then maybe your reaction will be positive. I know right now I can't stop thinking of you. Well for now I will leave this Open. Hope to see you soon.
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Apr. 16th, 2013 @ 03:28 am Times now AND ahead
Been a sometime since I posted last. So here goes to todays post.

I have found someone that may be someone I could share a life with. I will accept as a friend of mine or a partner for life. It will be our decision. I do know I like the man. He is a man for he deserves the respecr he has earned being a man of character for choosing to fight for his country. I don't know a lot about his past but that may or may not come to to light in the short time I have to get to know him.

I do know that if he will let me I want to show him a fun time. He will deploy for Afghanistan this Summer. And because I do like him I want to spend as much time with him as I can. So that he will have a happy time before he goes. I want to just hold him to give him some comfort he deserves. I don't want him to read this right now because I don't want to rush.

I will make this promise early. I want to promise that if given the opportunity I will not let you down as you have told many have. If given the opportunity I would support you through even the hardest times. I do expect disagreements. I expect we can work it all out. I expect I will worry when you are gone and be happy when you're around. I expect to enjoy many happy times. I will love you more than you will realize and care so much. I will accept you're opinion.

This has been prompted by Army Wiives.
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